i think i have some attention deficiency or something.
or maybe it's just the teacher?

today i tried to pay attention in lang arts.
i copied notes. yeah. but when i tried to listen to her, i really couldnt.
i knew she was talking. i HEARD what she said. but i didn't LISTEN to what she said. do you understand the difference?
hearing is plain knowing the words are going into your ears.
but listening is hearing and understanding the words that have been said.
by the way, the notes i copied weren't from what she said. it was from what i knew. i just wrote it down. and as the group presented, i copied some more! :)
i wonder why it's so hard to really, truly pay attention.
i'm gonna copy notes! lots of notes!
i won't write letters in class anymore.
i won't sms in class anymore. actually i only smsed when charmaine wasnt in school. yeah.
i guess that's all i'll do. i'll inevitably draw things, but i won't write letters. writing takes up more concentration than drawing.
soon my notebook is gonna be full of notes. and i can use my new notebook. and take down even more notes (:

but there's one more problem.
i hate maths. i should learn to like it. or tolerate it (MRS HENG :O)
today i really forgot my math workbook and she looked at me as if i have an attitude problem and didn't bring on purpose.
i go hyper during math. cos i'm bored, sleepy and i don't understand.
and she gets pissed sometimes. although she doesn't show it.
i think i need a nicer notebook for math or else i'd have no motivation to copy anything. harhar.

mm i hope i can become a good and guai student (x
aim for straight As! okay that's impossible. with jap, i will never get straight As.
i killed my sakubun today.
i wrote "watashi wa pengin ga suki desu/totemo suki desu" like 3 or 4 times? i'm dead. so so dead.
it's counted in ca3 btw.
i'm dead.
i so want to quit jap.
i should quit jap.
i can have more freedom.
more time for myself.
more time for work.
more time to reply mortal letters ._.
etc.

i shall continue with atticus' quotes.
i so cant believe this please.
i'm actually DOING LANG ARTS HOMEWORK at my own will.
at my own will
AT MY OWN WILL
laoheng didn't say it's due tomorrow anything. i'm just doing it on my own.
oh and laoheng expects our books to be scribbled in, with lots of post-its sticking out, highlighted text, etc.
but..
NO.
i will NEVER NEVER EVER EVER write ANYTHING in my book.
apart from my name, which is already there.
i won't write anything in it, won't highlight anything, won't stick anything, won't draw anything, NO. i will never do that.
you can say i hate lang arts WHATEVER, but you canNOT make me write in my book.
if you ever write in my book or whatever, you'll SO get it from me, laoheng. YOU WILL SO GET IT FROM ME. ah yes, neither will i fold any pages, dog-ear it whatever. NEVER.
so you can check my book and give me a sarcastic sad smile, whatever, but do you think i really care about what expression you give? no actually i do NOT.
you want evidence of work done? i don't mind showing you my notebook. it's PROOF. it's all RIGHT THERE.
in purple, orange, pink, blue and black. ITS ALL THERE. none are in my book.
so if you please, i would appreciate you not touching my book either.
and snatching vic's book from under her nose while she was looking at it was plain rude, you know.
you're an adult yet you still don't know your manners well? at least say EXCUSE ME or just let her know you'll be taking it, right? just grabbing it was totally rude
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well i guess i have nothing else to say.
i've been listening to yi shou jian dan de ge a lot of times. yay zhiyang <3
mm shall continue with lang arts.
byebye!